I regularly have mixed states that often land me IP but the last one was with psychosis and more severe. It is a traumatising experience. Delusions, hallucinations, racing thoughts, rapid speech, severe depression, sleeplessness and agitation beyond belief. All together it can be both embarrassing and traumatising. I am only one month out of being released from my IP stay and I am a mess. I am still embarrassed and the trauma is getting to me (though I have never had an episode do this to me so badly before).

Basically, it affects us all differently and, as Christina said, we need to be kind and loving towards ourselves. This is an illness, not a lifestyle choice. I hope you find peace and stay stable.