I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Ptak From what you wrote, it seems like you're trying to do your best to cope with all of this. Good for you! Be proud of yourself for that. I'm glad you have a therapist you can talk to. It can help a lot. Take all the time you need to get better. Just take it one step at the time. Take baby steps. No need to hurry. I'm sure you'll be able to get through all of this. Just try to do your best. That's all you can do after all. You have every right to be happy just like everyone else. Please don't give up. I hope things will get better soon for you. We all believe in you! I'm rooting for you, Ptak. You're a strong, wonderful person, Ptak. Try to get as much help as you can. You deserve it. You deserve to get better and to feel good. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all fo this, ptak. Please don't give up. You can do this! I believe in you. We're all rooting for you. You're a strong, wonderful person