Mickey - thanks so much for your support and all of your kind words. I agree the advice here is quite solid and I'm grateful so many wonderful people offered their opinions. They seem to know more about it than some of the therapists and doctors I've seen which is why I came here. You simply cannot beat first hand experience. Like Friendly Joe said, I'm not alone and several of the posts have put my experience into perspective. It was part of the disorder and I can deal with it better knowing more about what to expect from a mixed state.

Thanks again. You're a kind and genuinely thoughtful person.