So this is embarrassing...I seem to have developed a crush on a guy in a couple of my classes this semester...and for the stupidest of reasons (which I'm too embarrassed to share). So the biggest problem is I've somewhat developed a disgust and fear of being intimate with a guy due to previous experiences and I might be more attracted to women anyway. I would consider myself bisexual, but why would I develop a crush on a guy after the experiences I've had? When I was relieved that I no longer had to be with a guy and might be able to finally be with a woman for once? I don't know what to do. Do I pursue and try to find out if I could possibly enjoy a straight sex life or just ignore it? And if I did pursue this, what would I do? Would I even disclose sexuality/gender/how apprehensive I would be about sex? I hate being bisexual...there are so many more men available so you're more likely to pursue one of them and then once again erasing part of your sexuality.