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Originally Posted by Day Tripper
I don't think you're having shameful fantasies technically because shame and guilt are two different things. Shame is thrown upon a person by a third party whether it be a some bully or a town. Guilt is something that one feels because of their conscience. I don't think you have crossed any lines with this person.
I work with a female and catch myself looking her way all the time. She's married though, so I dare not making one friggin move on her, that would be crossing a line and then other people might shame me, and then my conscience would make me ffeel guit.
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I think it's because of the "intensity" of these daydreams.
I have tried to see it the same way and fantasising about celebrities. But it just doesn't feel the same to me, maybe it's stupid, I feel that celebrities know people are going to fancy them and have all sorts of fantasies about them. It's probably considered normal. But not a random guy on the internet. I'm not sure what the difference is, and maybe there is none. I just can't seem to make myself accept this.
Also I sometimes feel like I'm stalking him because now when I go to that forum, I'm actually looking for his replies in each thread, and paying more attention to them. I feel stupid but I can't help it
The daydreams/fantasies feel so real. I've never had such real feeling daydreams about men/boys before. And in them, he's my boyfriend, sometimes we go out and I have some imaginary friends I talk to about him. It's very deep and detailed.