I am searching for jobs but I don't want to take just any job, because I'm clumsy at times and socially awkward i would prefer to have a job where I'm mostly alone because I'm afraid people are going to make fun of/tease me. I'm afraid of being that guy. Plus I'm afraid I haen't lived up to my potential, but maybe what I'm doing now is the best that I can do, maybe I don't deserve a rich and fulfilling life because i don't have enough talent and/or work ethic.