I feel I am mentally ill -- I spend months in depression to the point I can't even get out of bed. I just can't feel OK, or happy minus tiny moments when they come but they always go. It's not normal to be this, and so this disorder decides for me how I feel, despite my efforts. I've mentioned before how I feel controlled by my emotions, instead of me being in control. It stems a lot from that.

Sadly, this is who I am.