Philosophy makes my brain hurt. So I've never considered myself philosophical really, at least not in a whole enchilada sense. The "big questions" don't really grab me. What's the point of exhausting my brain with unanswerables?? I do what's right because it's what's right, I need no further motivation or reason.
As far as knowing who I am, yes, I do. And I really don't have an interest in blending in. Don't misunderstand -- I don't go out of my way to, for instance, "shock" (after all, ultimately that is choosing based on what other people think, though that irony is lost on many). I just am who I am. I often don't "follow the herd", but it's not out of any plan, it's just that I don't get why people want to.
Some episodes have taken me out the the "real me zone". But of course that really didn't work out.
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Makes me sick to the heart, Oh I feel so tired. And the way the rain comes down hard, that's how I feel inside.
--The Cure