No mellow since 4 am. Woke to a panic attack after a nightmare. There is a bright side. Only one panic attack instead of a wave of many. Now just left with the anxiety. Meds only help so much. Makes it hard to stay with them. Lexapro for anxiety followed by Xanax to ease the anxiety side effect of the Lexapro. Then Adderall so I can think clearly followed by another Xanax to ease the anxiety caused by the Adderall. What the hell sense does this make? I feel like throwing all of it in the trash today.