I do have panic attacks and the usual physical symptoms. Other than that this is close to where I am. Clinically depressed and perpetually denied the life that
others experience... and with the label of avoidant which may well be accurate. I only relate to one person irl, everyone else is completely indifferent to me.. at best I have no idea how to change this. People just don’t like me and I don’t “whine” irl or even talk... So it isn’t because I’m “a negative person” .. they judge me as soon as they see me usually

Sorry for the rant