I know I was always a tomboy. I only wore a dress when my mom made me at family functions. Starting when I was 13 I didn’t feel quite like a female. I was called a cross dresser in high school. I still have no idea how makeup works. My hair is really short. I have a current picture of myself wearing an unbuttoned flannel shirt with the sleeves rolled up and a black T-shirt underneath and I’m wearing bootcut jeans. Friends of mine have wondered about that picture and have told me.

I heard about Sam Smith coming out as non binary and I googled it and it sounds a lot like how I’ve felt these past number of years.