I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Dust to Dust I agree with what all the others have already wisely said better than I ever could. You're NOT horrible. Please don't be so hard on yourself. You're a strong, wonderful person who's trying to do his best to survive. That's what matters the most! Perhaps this therapist is just not the right match for you. It can happen. Sometimes it can take a while before we find the right therapist for us. I'd suggest to try to see if you can find another one if you can. Maybe that could help. Please don't be so hard on yourself. Remember that there's nothing to be ashamed of. It's not your fault if you're feeling like this. It's not your fault at all! I hope things will get better soon for you. You deserve to be happy and to feel good just like everyone else does. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, Dust to Dust. I hope things will get better soon. I'm sure you'll be able to get through all of this. You're a strong, wonderful person. You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! Please don't give up! Try to hang on!