I don't know how much of a consilation this is, but at least you're one step ahead of me- you know what you want, I don't even know that

I'm not even halfway through life and havon't a clue what I'm meant to do (or what I want to do)

I am sorry that you didn't get in to the school. no, it's not a stupid thing, it's something important to you

(((hugs))))