Children are often taught not to speak badly of their parents. That's often where this feeling of guilt comes from when sitting and being honest about what experiences you had with them. Also, children are often drilled about behaving a certain way in public and they often see their parents behave differently in public then they do at home in private.


I always was looking over my shoulder, thought that was normal but it's not. Turned out there were a lot of reasons for that I had not realized.

Being uncomfortable in public, especially noisy public places tends to be a common symptom of PTSD. I can't sit in noisey crowded restaurants, it overloads my senses. I don't like going into crowded stores either. I like outside, "space" and "nature" gives me comfort, just read recently that is common with ptsd sufferers too.