I am I don't like being me either. I have always - since a young age - wanted to be someone else.
From my earliest days, my personal growth was stymied by my mother. There was a lot of intentional neglect. And, there was also a lot of verbal abuse. She wanted to be the center of my world and did not care about my life at all. I am FROZEN most of the time. And, am full of FEAR and FRUSTRATION. Do you know what is a mystery to me? How to have FUN.