Keep fighting, sinking! Just wanted to let you know that I'm reading what you're sharing and writing and that I care about you. I'm sure all the others here on PC care about you as well! Also, I don't think you're selfish at all! You've helped me a lot and I'll forever be grateful to you for that. You have every right to take care fo yourself, so please don't feel guilty about it, ok? Much love to you and please keep us updated, we all care about you here! We all love you here! Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. Sending many hugs to you, sinking. You're a strong, wonderful person. You deserve to be loved and to be happy just like everyone else does. I'm sure you'll be able to get through all of this!