Its been about 3 years since my dad died. He was the only parent that cared for me between the two. I just turned 39 in February and I feel so alone and scared. I feel like a child because in many ways I think o stopped emotionally developing at age 15 when a major trauma occurred. I have no friends...I do have two children that I adore and a partner that tries to understand....but I feel life just passing by. Like I'm just here waiting to die. I cry daily several times and I am just...sad.
The panic attacks are daily and always of I leave.