I'm also so hesitant to call my psychiatrist, even though she has told me multiple times to call *anytime anything at all* changes. I feel like I'm disrupting her or bothering her or something, it literally makes me nauseous to think of picking up the phone to call. Heaven forbid a receptionist is free and I can't just leave a message on the answering machine.
call ... take her at her word ... that is why you are going there in the first place ...
and welcome ... hope you find help here ...I know you will find friendship ...