I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, NervesOButter I understand what you mean. Anxiety and panic attacks are not easy to deal with. Please don't give up. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could help. You could learn new ways to cope with your feelings. Please don't give up. Life is not over. You'll be able to achieve some wonderful things in your life, I'm sure of that. Just try to do your best. That's all you can do after all, and it's more than enough! Keep fighting! You're a strong, wonderful person! You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this, NervesOButter. You're a strong, wonderful person. You don't deserve to suffer at all