My psych nurse just increased my Prozac in the hopes that it would help diminish my incidents of panic. I actually think it's making me move towards mania again, and has done nothing for my anxiety. I see her Wednesday, but I wish it were today. Sleep if it's what helps, and when you feel stronger you can do more. Your illness is not a fault of yours. It doesn't define you. It plagues us, but we are not our illness. You are young I imagine since you said you have another 19 years before you can retire. As far as working goes my suggestion would be to talk to a career counselor. In my city we have several different organizations that help people with mental illness find jobs. I had to quit working last September and go into partial hospitalization. I was panicking whenever I left the house, paranoia, hearing voices, you know, fun stuff. My psych nurse is trying to get my agoraphobia under control without using benzos. Not really sure how that's going to work out though. So I take each day by itself.
Are you living with anyone who can help alleviate some of your symptoms?