If I were a guy and he was a girl, I'd be labeled a perv.

And he does have some similarities with my ex...military background, similar hair/eye color...it's just embarrassing, I never thought this was my "type". I guess it's the type I have a chance with. Well for a date maybe...nothing long-term if he ever gets to really know me, just like I'd have no chance with any straight man long term.

I am also still embarrassed by why I became interested in him in the first place. It's even more stupid than what led me to develop feelings for my ex.