Haven't taken xanax in a while then decided to take 4mg. I feel tired. Not the same without methylphenidate which is a good thing. Think I'll just use it for panic attacks from now on. I feel less emotions. I planned to study but meh..

I want to smoke a cigarette.. but I quit cuz I might have lynch syndrome where it's very likely that I'll get all sorts of cancers in my life and have to be checked from at least age 20-25.