I love music too but also have times where simply choosing a song does my head in, as does any choice. It is a horrible state to be in so I’m sorry you’re suffering. I’m those situations I tend to get outside for as long as I can manage, tidy my flat, make a hot drink, or at my worst curl up in a ball on my bed so at least I’m safe. It depends on how bad you are suffering as to what coping skill will work. Be kind to yourself. Keep searching for options. Hopefully soon you will find what is right for you.
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Bipolar 1 with psychotic features
PTSD
"Phew! For a minute there I lost myself."
'Karma Police' by Radiohead