I often am my own worst enemy: self medicating, hiding details from my T and pdoc, pushing limits when I know I’m getting hypomanic so I can go higher, and many other things. Why? I really have no concrete idea. I want to live. I guess I sometimes just don’t give a f***.
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Bipolar 1 with psychotic features
PTSD
"Phew! For a minute there I lost myself."
'Karma Police' by Radiohead