I'm a stubborn person -- so my harsh critique of myself isn't going to change because simply because someone says " Oh don't be so hard on yourself" . One thing I try to do is be objective about it however. I've been in your shoes where I wonder if it's all just in my head. I step back and say to myself -- " Ok, could I really do anything about this? Was I in control of it? Is it something that I did or failed to do that lead to this? If so, am I really able to say I knew the consequence?" -- stuff like that, in specific terms of feeling like I'm 'faking it' , I often go to a specific line of thought -- "Even if I were, I know there is dis-regulation in my life beyond what seems to be normal. Forget labels for a moment, you need to realize you need some help, some some source. You can't fake that need."


Hope those thoughts can help.