I'm so sorry you're hurting so much, Sypher94 I'm sure many can relate to what you wrote, especially here on PC. Please don't be so hard on yourself. You're not stupid and you're not worthless. You're a strong, wonderful person who's just struggling right now. You WILL be able to get over this and to feel better. I promise you that. Do you see a therapist? Maybe that could. You could learn new ways to cope with your feelings. I'm so sorry you're going through all of this. Please don't give up. I'm sure you'll be able to get through all of this. Try to hang on. You'll find many people who are willing to listen to you and support you without judging you. I promise you that. You'll be safe here and I'm sure you'll meet many other people similar to you or with struggles similar to yours. You're in a safe place here on PC! I'm so sorry you don't have a support system IRL. Keep writing here if it helps. I know it's not the same thing, but at least it's something. Remember that we're here for you if you need it. Feel free to PM me anytime. Let me know if I can do something to help you. Wish you good luck! Let us know how it goes. I'm so sorry you have to deal with all of this. Please don't give up. try to hang on. You're a strong, wonderful person. You're awesome! You're strong! You're a warrior! You don't deserve to suffer at all! I'm so sorry you're going through all of this!