I respond well to it, it's just when I looked up the side effects list it scared me. Tho my therapist said in her professional opinion she hasn't seen anything too severe in the 10+ years it's been around. The fact remains tho I do need to keep taking some form of medication. It's taken me 7 years to finally accept this. I'd take meds for awhile do good go off them then slowly but surely cycle downward again until I get hospitalized. I tried and failed to beat it with will power alone. I just want to live a productive life and I can thankfully, it's just some of the med side effects really are pretty serious. Tho I was told they are pretty rare some of the really bad ones. I guess I have no choice but to take it and hope for the best, tho if I can get something with possibly less severe side effects it would be nice.