It is very painful to be terminated by a T. In a way, that leads to feelings like “what is so wrong with me that I can’t heal”.

My first T, also my PDOC of 8 years terminated me and I was in deep pain over it for several years.

Another T terminated me after only a few months because he was worried that I was too sui and he said he didn’t want that to happen on his watch.

My 3rd termination was my last T. He was talking about us being friends after therapy and when I told him that I still needed to have therapy, he didn’t listen. Actually, he wasn’t a good therapist anyways and he told me that he found me entertaining but it felt like he was encouraging the behaviors that I wanted to change. Plus, he said his boss got on him because he didn’t take any action when I was talking about sui.

My current T used to work with ex-T.

I’m doing much better with my current T than any others. I trust him a lot. I hope he doesn’t give up on me.