This post sucks. I don’t usually post in this part of the forum. My anxiety is keeping me awake This is a very boring post. Maybe if I put myself down enough ....... (thud)...... Bad paws (rain3)

I almost feel like a “new member” posting this. My inner snake says don’t be so ridiculous fuzzy paws (rain3)

I’ve read through this post and feel like deleting it. I’m not supposed to speak I usually avoid this part of the board because of my anxiety I was the hated cub when I was little. I try to give my inner cub love but it’s hard sometimes (rain3)

I have anxiety and social anxiety. I posted on a support board for anxiety, not pc, where the people don’t know me at all. I was brought up by Narcissists - I’m certain the family of origin are Narcissists because of their relentless criticism of me, telling me there is nothing good about me, gaslighting me and abandonment. I genuinely try to be kind and not to lash out at people, or reject them because I know how much it hurts. Sometimes I have made
mistakes though. I was also hurt in therapy where the therapist turned mean. Even a relative was disappointed in what happened in this therapy, which I won’t go into here. I’m sure that to some people there my post was ... I don’t know. I was just speaking my truth and saying I try not to buy into the judgments of bullies. Somebody replied saying that the people who think they are kind are usually awful people. I’m not sure what to think or what was going on in that person’s mind replying to me with that post. I was a new member, but I wouldn’t say that to anyone. I’m also usually forgiving of people, I
don’t bear a grudge against this person. They may have been having a bad day.

Or maybe they had had someone in their life who thought they were a good person but actually weren’t. I’ve worked hard to try to break free from being told how bad I am throughout my cubhood
I’m confused.

I was also judged at a social event recently where I didn’t know the people at all. This event was very hard for me to go to, my anxiety was very high.... I was in no way feeling negative towards anyone there. And somebody very meanly judged me. I won’t go into details. I guess these
incidents feed my “inner critic”. Why are people mean without cause. I didn’t
know these people.

I thought I had done a good job of shaving off my fur.