Mar 28, 2019 at 09:16 AM
Nope!
My recovery began in the early 1990s. Over the years, many therapists I went to would encourage me or flat out tell me to do something I was not comfortable doing because it made me too anxious, sometimes not understanding why. Now I know a lot of that is because of my Complex PTSD diagnosed in 2017.
Over time, I realized as my self-esteem healed and came back to life that my foundation of self-loathing, self-hatred and self-destruction my family waterlogged me in had to heal before I could do anything I avoided. There are still lots of things I will avoid, but I am slowly making my way through how to manage those.
As my self-esteem healed by facing and validating my wounded emotions, I saw the difference in my feelings when I avoided something before because I had unresolved pain connected to that emotion. I had to resolve that before I could consider doing anything I avoided in the past. And that is the coolest thing to experience because I see firsthand how much better I am doing. That brings me much joy and contentment!
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"Love you.
Take care of you.
Be true to you.
You are the only you,
you will ever know the best.
Reach for YOUR stars.
You can reach them better
than anyone else ever can."
Landon Clary Eason
Grateful Sobriety Fangirl Since 11-16-2007
Happy Sober Crafter
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