Thank TheWell for your comments. I rationally understand that these deletions have nothing to do with me. It's an emotional reaction I have been writing about since the beginning of the thread. Now I have a little more insight into my reactions.

My parents used to argue and fight in a foreign language they didnt teach to their children so I was as a child often in an emotional 'war zone' of fighting and having no idea what the fighting was about and thinking it was about me. It turns out my father was having affairs all those years, but I didn't know what was going on at the time. I think I am reacting to 'parental authority' of the site acting in a hidden way to me based on my childhood experience.

Again it was not my intent to provide feedback as I originally posted this in the bipolar forum to get support and help rather than to make any suggestions about the site.