Great post, SheHulk.
For me, it boils down to a reminder that she is still there. When I am in 'my vulnerable place' as she calls it, I cannot look at her...but I feel alone there. If there were some way I could look at her without it feeling forced/interrogation like...that would be ideal.
I have even considered rearranging the seating, but I feel like that would just compound things.
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