I don't feel like it was a brilliant session. I still don't feel close to him and it's not the same.

>I kept on going on about how he wasn't there for me when I needed him during my crisis.

>He said I wish you would talk to me.

>He finally got in it the end, and asked me how it felt to not have him there. That it was his fault he had not been attuned to me.That he tried to balance talking about the dark stuff without me being overcome by it so tried to keep a light by making jokes.

>I'm allowed to email during his holiday.