Hi, I'm reading all your responses with awe. Were are you getting your drive from? I manage to get to work, I dictate more or less when i work, but hole myself up as much as possible because i can't stand being around other people. It's unhealthy, so i try and walk, to keep thin, but its also a form of self punishment, i like photography, but find it pointless because there's no one to share it with, seriously, I'm divorced twice, live in s trailer park, going 50 and i might as well be 90. Yet i can't see the point, or get the drive? What's the point of living if its more of the same? Create a life worth living.... how? Dont you have to value life to make it worth living?