Absolutely. This is quite common for trauma survivors. Part of it can be remnants of a lasting trauma bond that we never had closure for.

Someone on a distress line once told me that it makes sense that we would miss someone even if they were abusive - because most relationships are not always 100% abusive. (Naturally it is different for someone who we never formed a bond with). I miss some of my abusers because for a time - they offered something special that no one else did. Might be something very small - but it was something important to me and that is partly why some of us stay in abusive relationships. Sometimes we can feel mixed about someone who abused us and feel ashamed or disgusted with it; but it makes sense and we have to remember we are entitled to those feelings no matter how strange it may seem.

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