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Originally Posted by PeterPandora
Predictable schedule helps for sure. Having the motivation to keep the schedule is another thing. I'm sick of being sick. So the obvious answer is to stop viewing yourself as sick.
It's them i realize I just don't like life, my life, itself. Perhaps the bipolar has little to do with it, other than rubbing me of everything and everyone I've ever had in life..
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Viewing the world in a different way is something I've dealt with for many years. What makes others happy and excited is the equivalent of all those people trying to be happy doing baby activities and playing with baby toys. In that scenario we're now the same. I'm bored and tired of faking it and for what purpose.
The reason why I can't stay motivated is, what I'm doing gets boring quickly and I hate wasting my time and money.
As for robbing you of everything, from my perspective I've noticed that I purposely push people away. It's a lot of work to have friends and my way of thinking is to advance for the majority of people. I hate mundane conversations and childish games.