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eskielover · Apr 06, 2019 at 07:13 PM

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Originally Posted by mountainstream

I wonder if the persistent feeling of emptiness I have is related to Childhood Emotional Neglect. Can anyone relate?

From my own personal experience wuth my dysfunctional parents who were incapable of really emotionally connecting with anyone.....I grew up & spent 54 years of my life wondering if that superficial feeling without connection was all there really was to relarionships.

If I had known better I wouldn't have married the guy I did because he was just like my parents totally incapable of emotionally connecting & I thought that was NORMAL.

It wasn't till I finally got out of that marriage & my dog Leo was the one that taught me what emotionally connecting felt like. From there I was able to learn & experience it with the wonderful NEW people who are now in my life after moving 2100 miles away to a place where I knew no one. It was actually like having a second chance at life.

At first I felt uncomfortable feeling & it was fleeting & unsure until I gained trust in the people in my life (for really the first time) & I felt safe being me.

That "empty" feeling of not connecting at anything but a surface level has left me. I still have some people I connect at that level with but most people in my life have helped me change that feeling to a "warm fuzzy" feeling of care