Dear Queen Confusion,
You are not alone in this confusion and questioning. Me too. I am currently in the discovery process with my T and it is sometimes overwhelming, sometimes a relief, sometimes scary and sometimes unbelievable...I convince myself I am making it all up. The thing is, I have had many surgeries and have some "actual" "physical issues that...if left to my own mind, I would convince myself that those never happened either. So I know that I don't always see the big picture or trust my own ideas and judgement at times.
I think maybe the key is to be open minded. Maybe DID. Maybe not. We all have "parts." There are varying degrees of everything. It can be tempting to rush into a diagnosis to point to...but even then, it will be a journey of soul excavation that will change and unfold.
Deep breaths....
FearLess47