Hello Fuzzybear
you are not a terrible person. I've seen the generous, kind, thoughtful support you've left for so many people who post here over the years and that alone is evidence you are not a bad person.
I'm not sure why you're feeling this way, I'm so sorry that you are, but I want you know that in my opinion, you are a good, caring, kind, lovable person and have plenty to like about yourself
I really hope you feel better, sending big, warm, friendly hugs - take care