I am really not a horrible person
I have trust issues
I’m a messed up empath
An HSP
Not a horrible person

If someone said they “love you at Christmas”

Would you think this person cared about you?

I wish I knew the “right” things to say

People mostly didn’t like me on pc (long ago) because I was so “quiet”

Or maybe most did like me. Yes, they did

But why does it matter so much to me...
Why does it matter being blamed and excluded for being me

Why does it matter if someone’s boyfriend irl is cruel to me
I don’t matter

I try to be true and AS IS
But I’m a “failure”

I’d been hurt too many times and I didn’t want to upset anyone with any words

But quiet or not I’m just Wrong