I was never meant to be a man, I feel that I was always supposed to be a woman. But it is impossible for me to transition due to my current life circumstances and my whole life I was unable to because of my "family" and their "image". So, I'm kind of at a loss and unsure how to cope. I can't even look in the mirror without feeling a sense of utter despair. How can I get started on this journey? I just don't know where to begin