I hate my life
Yet I love my life.
How can I love and hate?
This makes me sick
I feel bad that I may be hospitalized
Yet I'm in grad school
Do I feel safe?
As safe as I'll ever be.
Do I call?
No, I can't.
Things are not that bad.
But the memory of undergad is there
If I'm hospitalized will I survive
What will happen to my program
Will I be gatekeeped from
Doing what I love?????
Gatekeeper a term used for those that are inadequate for counseling programs. I don't want to be a statistic, I want to help people but can I do it in a couple of years, or do I need to postpone?