or maybe it's not that (since I always wash them at appropriate times)

the anxiety is coming from a few people who, after having contact with me, are going over and putting soap on their hands discretely (and when I've asked them what they are doing completely denying it)

maybe I'm thinking oh, they've come in to contact with something dirty and horrible- they need to wash it off

but my hands are clean. they are always clean. when other people use soap around me it's starting to become a bit of atrigger (it could be they just like to be clean themselves, and I can't see that)

even if that was the case, why use soap after touching something equally as clean