Thanks for your kind reply MickeyCheeky. All that you've said is valid and valuable.
You are right, no one actually said anything about my being late other than my brother asking if everything was alright. I still felt like everyone's eyes were upon me. That is how my mind always operates.
Had we been on time - had it been me in control I would have had us all seated well before the event - I wouldn't have had to go through this anguish. Not to mention too that I wouldn't have let anyone down.
I did as you suggested talk to my boyfriend and let him know I found his actions difficult for me. I told him it was not only unfair to me but to the people that were counting on me. I told him I wished to avoid this from happening again and how important it was to think ahead and form plans. He took this all in but I could tell he didn't appreciate my nagging I suppose. But I closed the conversation with a, "So we are in agreement that in the future we will try to plan better."
This was difficult for me as I shy away from confrontation at all costs.
Before this thread gets moved into the relationships section I would really like to hear from others who've had similar experiences and feelings about being late - at someone else's hand or their own/
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