Hi Everyone. I was supposed to have therapy tonight at 5 but my therapist called and said she had a family emergency and needed to cancel, and that she would have the office call to reschedule me. The last time I saw her was the 18th of March, so almost a month. The office hasn't called to reschedule me yet but I wouldn't be surprised if it was another month before I got in. I'm feeling let down that I don't have therapy tonight. It means I can go to my volunteer position, but, I would have rather gone to therapy. Funny because last week I was really not feeling it, like I wasn't looking forward to my therapy appointment but that changed over the weekend, and suddenly I was looking forward to it.

I also have a decision to make. I have given up SH for Lent and my T was pushing me a bit to extend that decision out. Without her accountability, because I won't be seeing her so she won't be pushing me, I will be easy for me to not feel like I need to extend it out. I don't want to let myself off easy but I feel like, well she wasn't there for me, so it doesn't matter.

I feel a little abandoned, even though I know logically that is not what happened. And it is a little ridiculous to feel abandoned. I just feel like I don't have the support that I would have liked to have had. Especially because I was having SUI thoughts/feelings this past weekend, and now I have no help with them for another however long.

I guess I'm whining. I'd like to be heard. Thanks all. Kit