if you had difficulty breathing or you had severe chest pains would you keep them to yourself? would you seek medical attention? more then likely you would seek attention, so why are these thoughts any different? seek medical attention. find a therapist. counselor. call a help line. get the issue addressed. know what you are dealing with..and if needed see a psychiatrist or your dr for medication. difficulty breathing makes living difficult, as does chest pains...so do suicidal thoughts. asking for help here is good but really no one here can really help make you "better" ie make the thoughts go away or address them. none of us possess those skills. you need someone who has mad skills and knows how to use them.