I don’t see anything weird with that. I’m 20, and just lose my virginity by hookup last year (It was kinda against my will too). I’ve done a couple of sex and let me tell you that I NEVER ENJOYED THEM AT ALL. I am so confused with people who enjoy it, it just so gross and repulsing to me. But I need to do it cause I got sugar daddy, so aside from that I try to not do it in any way.

You don’t need to blend in with them, just do anything you are comfortable doing. I’m pretty sure there will be someone you’ll be interested enough to do it naturally