I'm so tired...I just want to be free; I want to find myself again but every time I try I feel more lost.

I sort of have goals and dreams ( they might not be mine, but it just something to keep me hopeful). But the depression takes up so much of my mind that those goals and dreams end up getting lost too.

I dropped out of my final year of high school because of toxic people. I've already wasted a year of my life trying to find a way out. I've taken the break; I've tried therapy, but in the end I'm just suppressing my emotions I'm still trying to stay strong. I dont want people to find out about my weakness; I dont want to disappoint them and end up disappointing myself.

I don't want this anymore. I'm not suicidal because that isn't an option for me. But I just want to feel alive again. I can't take anymore breaks ; I dont have time to be depressed. I have lots to do.