a good therapist should be able to determine what steps need to be taken. and honestly, going to the hospital might be the best step. maybe it will give you some time to relax in a safe place, get on to some meds in a safe way and just in general be totally safe. most times you don't have to stay an eternity..no one wants that..they want you to be safe. to be alive. and as for your kids, if you can't manage yourself, maybe they need to be safe as well. usually the minimum is 3 days. you can do that...for your life, for their life. they don't need to see you at your worst, worrying if all is going to be ok?

being scared is a good thing...now do something about it. you won't be the first to show up at an er scared. I was. each time. and on the other hand each person I talked off that ledge was just as scared...scared is ok. scared helps you realize it's ok to get help.