How do you feel today Icedgem? What is your gut telling you...do you think you need a doctor? If you feel unsure, you could tell the doctor something like "Well I feel quite bad and I have negative thoughts bothering me but I have zero desire to act on these thoughts. What I'd really like is to have a safe chat with an experienced provider about my thoughts and feelings."

Am I understanding you correctly, Icedgem? You do not have a plan to end your life....you want someone to help you work through the suicidal ideation?